Wednesday, March 31, 2010
happy note!
I have been working at Parkland Chevrolet for the past 10 months. It is not my passsion to say the least. I have a new job now! I am a nanny for a family right down the road from me! Three cute little boys! I am so excited!
my family
Welcome to my family.
My mother was evicted from her apartment last week. Her boyfriend/ fiance has cancer and has moved out to his mothers house, she was supposed to go with but they ditched her at the last moment leaving her homeless and with out money. How am I to deal? There are no classes on how to properly take care of your parents. Now you would assume that it would not take me convincing her that she needed to start figuring out what she was going to do. It could not be that easy. I know that I may seem a bit heartless or uncaring, but I have been raising my parents since I was about 8 or 9 and have still yet to perfect my parenting skills. I love them... I really do. When exactly does tough love become part of the equation?
I have managed to talk her into getting in the shower and telling herself that there is hope and that she can move forward with expectation of good... I hope it sticks. I have offered her Jesus in the past, that is the only hope I know but she is not interested. So, she is moving in with my aunt. This is neither good nor bad. She will have a roof over her head and will most likely be fed but will be living in the ghetto of an indian reservation, surrounded by people who will gladly feed her addiction. Alcohol has been her constant companion for as long as I can remember. Her best friend even. She has had a tough life and cannot blame her for needing some sort of out, I just hope she can fully experience living before she dies.
My sister lived with her and is also in the process of finding a place to live. I am not worried about her, she is like me she will survive in most any situation and smile most of the way through. She has a son, his name is xzavier, he is almost three years old. We have an interesting relationship because I practically raised her. We are learning how to be sisters instead of "mother" and "daughter." I think it is going well. I worry about where she is going in life, but am proud of how far she has made it given what we started with.
I just found out my dad is back in jail... I haven't talked to him in a long time. Enough said.
There are good things about my family. Given what is going on, this is all I could come up with at the moment.
My mother was evicted from her apartment last week. Her boyfriend/ fiance has cancer and has moved out to his mothers house, she was supposed to go with but they ditched her at the last moment leaving her homeless and with out money. How am I to deal? There are no classes on how to properly take care of your parents. Now you would assume that it would not take me convincing her that she needed to start figuring out what she was going to do. It could not be that easy. I know that I may seem a bit heartless or uncaring, but I have been raising my parents since I was about 8 or 9 and have still yet to perfect my parenting skills. I love them... I really do. When exactly does tough love become part of the equation?
I have managed to talk her into getting in the shower and telling herself that there is hope and that she can move forward with expectation of good... I hope it sticks. I have offered her Jesus in the past, that is the only hope I know but she is not interested. So, she is moving in with my aunt. This is neither good nor bad. She will have a roof over her head and will most likely be fed but will be living in the ghetto of an indian reservation, surrounded by people who will gladly feed her addiction. Alcohol has been her constant companion for as long as I can remember. Her best friend even. She has had a tough life and cannot blame her for needing some sort of out, I just hope she can fully experience living before she dies.
My sister lived with her and is also in the process of finding a place to live. I am not worried about her, she is like me she will survive in most any situation and smile most of the way through. She has a son, his name is xzavier, he is almost three years old. We have an interesting relationship because I practically raised her. We are learning how to be sisters instead of "mother" and "daughter." I think it is going well. I worry about where she is going in life, but am proud of how far she has made it given what we started with.
I just found out my dad is back in jail... I haven't talked to him in a long time. Enough said.
There are good things about my family. Given what is going on, this is all I could come up with at the moment.
Friday, March 26, 2010
my first one...
I feel so much pressure, writing your first post is very important. You must grab the readers attention, speak from the heart, and get a point across all at the same time. Whew! Here we go...
My purpose in having a blog, is more for my sanity than anything. I am an internal thinker and when asked what is on my mind I have no idea where to start. I could not capture my audiences attention long enough to fully delve into the inner working of my heart and mind, nor do I always want to.
I feel a proper introduction is due, not all of you know me. I am a bad speller and bad at puncuation, so please excuse my mistakes. You may correct me, but please know I have plenty(or maybe just one) annoying friend who keeps me in check. I have a pretty colorful life, I grew up in the ghetto but have worked hard to get where I am. I believe education is highly important and nothing is worth anything without God. I have had this slight obsession with living as close to natural/organic/obstaining from all that "normal" dr's have to offer. I will not give in to "the man". I have many other things I am passionate about and will probably come out from time to time in my post. I promise to be as honest, at least as much to my knowledge. Thank you for listening thus far. I am off work now and will revisit my "first post" later.
My purpose in having a blog, is more for my sanity than anything. I am an internal thinker and when asked what is on my mind I have no idea where to start. I could not capture my audiences attention long enough to fully delve into the inner working of my heart and mind, nor do I always want to.
I feel a proper introduction is due, not all of you know me. I am a bad speller and bad at puncuation, so please excuse my mistakes. You may correct me, but please know I have plenty(or maybe just one) annoying friend who keeps me in check. I have a pretty colorful life, I grew up in the ghetto but have worked hard to get where I am. I believe education is highly important and nothing is worth anything without God. I have had this slight obsession with living as close to natural/organic/obstaining from all that "normal" dr's have to offer. I will not give in to "the man". I have many other things I am passionate about and will probably come out from time to time in my post. I promise to be as honest, at least as much to my knowledge. Thank you for listening thus far. I am off work now and will revisit my "first post" later.
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